Complaint...

I intend to tell all that I feel about my health today! Don’t be surprised at my feelings as I try not to complain very much but I feel very ornery at the moment.

When I first found that I had diabetes I felt “No big deal I will just act like I had nothing wrong with me.”, this was a big childish mistake as I was only twelve at the time. My problems have mostly risen from the fact that I never changed this attitude that “I am just going to act as if I were normal”. Since then I have gone totally blind in the left eye and legally blind in the other and this is the worst thing that could happen. I truly wish that I had paid attention to the doctors and to my mother as they were only concerned for my health.

I have put Diana through a living he__ as I would go through insulin reactions without knowing what I was doing or what was going on around me and I am sure I affected many others as well.

Each of the following incidents caused me pain and nausea without me even realizing it.
Ø Renal transplant
Ø Heart attack 7 in total
Ø Loss of both legs
Ø Loss of the ability to use left hand and arm for much beside balancing on
And the worst of all is the stroke which has left me without the capacity to think clearly about most things. This is the reason that I had to take a disability retirement. It is the reason that Diana has to do so much more than a normal wife should have to do, she has to act as if I were not even here with the exception of my little income.

And eve worse than the stroke is the poor way I treated my children so they don’t even want to have much to do with me now.

Diana asks me why I don't complain about the raw deal I was given in this life and my answer has always been that each of us were given the choice of what would happen to us and this is what I chose. So why have I done so many sinful things if I believe this so strongly? Answer: That is the sixty-four thousand dollar question.

So I have come to a point where I am incapable of doing much more than existing, well I told you at the start that I am in a foul mood today!

Grandchildren

To each of my grandchildren I want you to know:
1) Never ever doubt the love of your parents of whom your Heavenly Father is the MOST important. (I believe your earthly parents will teach you of this great being and so I will not take the time to try to tell you all you should know.)
2) As you get to be a teenager you will discover more and more exciting things that you will believe is a new discovery to you and your friends. This is great and you should be excited about it. Your parents were excited too. There is little that you will learn that is not already known by your earthly parents and our Heavenly Father knows ALL.
3) Don’t be as dumb as your grandpa while studying. I never tried until after I got married, then I thought it was important to understand what I was studying so remember it is not just for yourself but for your future spouse and children that you are studying now.
4) Friends are a good thing in your life and will mean more to you than you can believe. Friends will help you make many decisions in life and because of this you need to be very picky about who you choose as a friend. Try to choose members of the church as the biggest portion of your friends. ALWAYS REMEMBER that friends are not as important as your parents. My children forgot this sometimes.
5) Cars were so exciting to me and so I believe they will be to you also. They are not a toy that can be broken and forgotten as you have done with Christmas gifts a lot so far. They are a significant expenditure to you or to your parents and so should be treated as you would treat a good friend.
6) When dating:
Remember that dating is a time in your life when you should have fun, good wholesome fun that you can always look back upon with pride during the rest of your life. So don’t do something you cannot tell everyone including your Heavenly Father about. (He will know anyway.)
a) Wives will almost always be like their mothers. (Except your grandma who is like her mother in most ways except she wants the best for her children.)
b) Husbands will almost always be like their fathers. My sons are just like me, they love to be in front of the computer or electronic games.
So always get to know the parents of the one you choose for your eternal companion. And please find someone who is worthy to go through the temple of our Heavenly Father with you.
As time goes on I will think of other things I think you should know so keep your eyes open for future posts named Grandchildren.

Bear

I wake and take Duke for a pee walk every morning at around 5:30 AM. We normally go over to the middle school next to us, Wy' East Middle School, where they have a track that I can go around while Duke runs around me all over in front of me , behind me and all over. I can do this only when there are no prople around as Duke always wants to go visit everyone and lick them. This morning we got out to the side of the apartment complex and some guy was running away from the area. Well he stopped long enough to tell me to get out of the area which I did not understand as he was talking so fast that everything sounded like a blab. Duke and I ignored the fright he seemed to have and went on a little way further until a police car came up and told us that there was a bear about 1 block east of us and that I should go home, which I did.

Duke still had to go to the bathroom and so I took him right next to the building. While I was waiting for him to go to the bathroom he started barking and I looked up to see a bear running across the soccer field in front of us. So I decided Duke didn't need to go that bad and went in to tell Diana.

This was the first time I have ever waken Diana early and she didn't get angry at me for waking her. She turned on the TV to watch for news and then went out into the back yard to see if she could see it. Diana didn't see the bear but she did see a pickup and a police car. She came back in to watch more news and we watched until just before the bear was darted. Because there was a commercial Diana went out in the back yard again and saw the bear running for all he was worth south. Apparently, according to the news, the bear was Darted and took off. They also said that he had been reported at around 5:00 AM and it was about 7:00 AM before the news reported him to be unconcious and in custody.

Family without Alex

Lil ole Keary, Andrew,
Calixta, Ciria, Kristy, Diana and Cathy.
I was asked to put this up as Diana is ashamed of her blog. I guess.